to hold in esteem or honor: Respect

I have never understood this word "Respect". What does it mean? I have looked through the dictionary and I see that it interprets respect as : # A feeling of appreciative, often deferential regard; esteem. # The state of being regarded with honor or esteem.
# Willingness to show consideration or appreciation # To refrain from intruding upon or interfering with...
I understand being appreciative, and non interference. I do no understand Honor. Probably, I should try and find the meaning of Honor..got it..Honor: honesty, fairness, or integrity in one's beliefs and actions..yes I understand it now..

I understand what does it mean by saying that I respect this person and I don't respect that person. Do not take me wrong...dont misunderstand me by thinking that till date I have never understood the word respect or honor...I think they are the building blocks of ANY relationship.

But what I honestly do not understand is how can someone tell me "You should respect this person because I am respecting him". Now , this is something I cannot comprehend. What will make me respect a person honestly and truly would come from within myself and my mind, no one can force me to respect a person just because s/he is holding a high post ( I would respect the post and give the person the benefit of doubt by thinking that s/he has come here only cos they must have got something in them..but respecting the PERSON just because he holds the post doesn't cut ice with me) similarly, Do not expect me to respect a person only because s/he is old. I understand that the person has AGE and Experience behind him/her, but why should I respect that Age/Experience. What has this person done to achieve that Age or experience? Nothing! Everyone grows old and it is not an accomplishment by itself. Every person is subject to situations like it or not so, here again, it is not the individual who chose that "today I shall experience this and not this". Yeah, how the person comes out of the situation and what has the person learnt are more important to me. So, I would rather respect the learnings out of the lives than the mere age or experience factor.

From the learning, comes respect for the person. Well, in a few words... I need a Reason to respect a person...and a solid one at that.

Respecting someone's ideas is good with me, respecting someone's behavior is good too..but respecting someone who is authoritative and makes life miserable for everyone around...IS NOT. And even if you force me to do that, I would be merely acting and not truly feeling it. Even though that may satisfy the momentary need ( which is good with me), it will only increase my frustration levels and eventually turn into hatred.

I lost the enthu to write...

I was so full of frustration a few mins back..just had to get it out of me somehow and had decided that writing it all out would calm my nerves...but then, I saw a lizard, sweared at it..the frusty level reduced a lil..or rather increased cos I detest Lizards..then I switched on the comp..an old freind pinged after a looooooong time..felt nice :)..n then I spoke to genius n
Lo Behold!..
I forgot what I was disgusted about!!!..
so no more of writing blog..

Time...

hey..

I am sad and frustrated. Well, not exactly SAD but I am agitated that nothing is "happening" in my life. Now, how is that possible? I have an impending marriage, impending job, impending move to another country(hopefully)...so, why am I agitated? Because the above mentioned things are not happening NOW and not in the near future ( By near future, I mean 6 months) But, what I know is that once the ball starts rolling, I wont be able to stop it or even halt it for sometime..n then again there would be a lull in my life again...
I guess that is what life is...it is like a wheel...keeps going on n on and then u suddenly realise- "oh my God! I have covered such a long distance!!"

You know what, everything has a time!..believe it or not...it is so amazing when you actually think about the happenings in this way..every single minute has a timing!..it is like a play/ movie..things have to happen at a particular time and place and occasion- it is impeccable!..

I guess, I just need to patient and wait for the clock to strike and things will roll!! and roll they will in such a manner that there will be no stopping to it...Well, i guess that is why they say.. live every minute..savour every second ..cos it is not going to come back...
Who knows after a few weeks/ months, I would crave for the situation I am in now!..so let me not feel as if this moment in my life is worth less than the one I am awaiting...after all this is my life too...so it better be the best...n it is upto me for making it that..let me give this moment it's due respect and honour it by feeling that I am enjoying it and living it.